roots

Do you ever watch a tree sway in the breeze?Do you ever wonder about the roots below the branches?Do you wonder? Blessed is the man
       who does not walk in the counsel of the wicked
       or stand in the way of sinners
       or sit in the seat of mockers.
 ² But his delight is in the law of the LORD,
       and on his law he meditates day and night.
 ³ He is like a tree planted by streams of water,
       which yields its fruit in season
       and whose leaf does not wither.
       Whatever he does prospers.(Psalm 1:1-3)







As I've been dealing with trials I've also been wondering.  I wonder where my roots are sunk.  Am I deep into the ideologies of the world?  Or deep into the truth of God?  It's so easy to say that I'm sold on the truth of God, and then when push comes to shove it's so challenging to truly surrender to His will.
Just yesterday, on Hannah's birthday, I once again was battling with what I thought I needed, or wanted, or what I thought should happen.  Instead of releasing my anxiety and worry to the Lord, I found myself checking bank balances throughout the day.  Where's the trust in that?  Where's the belief?
Until Todd came home.
And he reminded me that I cannot serve two masters--God and money.  There can only be one.  And I was attempting to sink my roots of security not in the Lord, but in the dollar.  And I was miserable. And angry.  And sad.  It's okay to be sad, to mourn.  But, I was convicted that it was imperative that I moved out of self and into faith. So I let go of that stuff and embraced the time, the moments of the day.  And later, I've got pictures to show you from our celebration.  Am I perfect at this?  No.  But, I try, and try, and try, and surrender.  The challenge for me is believing beyond the temporary of this world and having faith in the bigger picture--the eternal picture.  Am I here to make my life pleasant?  Or am I here to be a light? To speak the truth?  To live in joy? Focused?  And alive for the Lord? No matter what?
I think I know the answer.And it's time that I live it.



No one can serve two masters. Either he will hate the one and love the other, or he will be devoted to the one and despise the other. You cannot serve both God and Money. (Matthew 6:24) ...but seek first his kingdom and his righteousness.... (Matthew 6:33a)